### hate_v3.0 *ALPHA* ##### Published: Wednesday, January 25th 2006 work sucked ass. andy is a slacking mother fucker. i swear to god if freedom wasn't the most treasured thing in the world to me aside krys i'd remove the stain that exists in space where andrew stands. there would be no extend to which i'd like to see something horrible happen to him. mother fucker. god damn it, mother fucker. nobody in my life makes me feel this way. only him. he is the living definition of everything that i am against. i am so serious. everything about him, his interests, the things he holds most dearly in his life are the things that make me scour bleach in my eyes to have to see. it wouldn't be an issue if he weren't my boss. half of it is my fault. i let shit happen to much. i guess its why i like nathaniel so much. he does things i fantasize about doing. nothing special either. he just speaks the truth and doesn't give a shit what anyone things. i don't care what anyone things, that is not a problem and those close to me probably can affirm that. my issue.. is simply speaking. i have a problem exposing myself to others. especially when it comes to someone asking my opinion on something. simple-one-word-answers coming from me turn into prolonged conversations, mostly glazing people over a few minutes into the mix. I'm not sure what it is that makes me like that. if heredity is for real, i got this from my mother. for all i can remember, during the entire duration of her marriage to my father whenever they would get into an argument, it came to a point where she just threw down all the cards and sucked up anything she had to. that always made me cry. there is so much of my mother in me that sometimes i feel i need not explain anything to her, and usually i don't. its places like that where my one-word-answers make sense. that is what is truly appreciated. got back from waukesha a little bit ago. went to pickup another monitor from a guy. its a beastly 21". but whatever works. as much time as i spend on a computer, and i mean **serious** time - i've never been one to spend much money on a monitor. as stupid as it sounds it truly is one of the least important elements to me in regards to *the box*. that's what it do. i'll use this 19" for my PC. i guess i spent all that time building that thing i might as well use it.. maybe i should install linux or something. cos seriously i do not want to have to deal with windows. I'm all about the alternative source. well that's it i guess.