when i went back to sleep for the second time yesterday afternoon i felt like shit. shivery crap where you feel like your on the borderline of getting sick. something about having my person tuck me in, and make sure that the covers were actually covering my entire body, i slept for another nine or ten hours and for a few of those hours i was able to be right next to her presence. i woke up feeling a whole lot better. i just hope i didn't fuck up her sleeping schedule too much. i seriously thought i would be a single person at this time, but all the power of the gods and the earths in this small, small universe fusioned their power together and kept me held together at the very foundation. i've purchased several little rap songs on itunes that i had in my cd player when i was a teenager. now while I'm a divine fan of kmfdm's line that goes: "we hate all music and especially rap" the rap music of when i was a teenager in school is eons and eons better than this "Fuck you whore, I'm rich, your not, fuck your mother too, club, club, club" crap they call "rap" nowadays. i just downloaded "victory" by puff daddy, notorious big, and busta rhymes doing the hook. i dont like puff daddy too much but like most of the album that this song came from, its all just biggie with puff daddy squeaking off in the background. those songs from back then were when rap was in its good state. at least the pop crap that was on the radio back then. it was all put together well, and producers actually spent good time and pot making good beats and lacing them with lyrics that are second to none if you compare them to todays crap. i have not illegally downloaded a song or album in nearly six months. that's leaps and bounds away from where i stood mentally in regards to p2p and illegal music back in the day. now I'm all about itunes, legal music and keep your fucking hands off my ipod. that's just how its turned out. i just figured i would hate to open my paycheck one day to see a line where it says PAY TO THE ORDER OF that reads: "we found someone online to download your work, so your not getting paid this week" fuck that. i've purchased a bit of music already in my short time of being an itunes user. stuff from all sides of the spectrum. i replaced a song from an album i already had, because there was a rip error in the mp3 (prob a cd scratch), the opening track for the final fantasy VIII soundtrack. anyone who has witnessed the opening of the game knows its well worth its .99. i have to comfortably say that i've spend over a hundred dollars on itunes already, or maybe not. my current account balance is right under 70.00. i've purchased more classical albums than anything. i love itunes so much. tuesday is my next day off. if i do not go out this morning and get my shop on then i'll have to do it on tuesday. i've already told my mother that i'll be out of town during mothers day, but that's alright because she always stops up at my work on friday nights to say hello and check the status of my state of the nation. i'll be giving her her gift then. there is this little metal dog with floppy ears at steins that is a flower pot holder, sister saw it initially but already got something for her. so i'll probably get that for her, and either a gift certificate for steins gardens or walschmidts this elite flower shop in the menomonee falls area. i've seen my mother cold drop over a hundred dollars on flowers there before. i got her a fifty dollar one for xmas and i'll get here either a 25 or 50 one for mothers day. my hope is that between those two holidays i've paid for her yard this year. she works a second job ALL WINTER for the sole purpose to save cash to make her yard all pretty with flowers and my-mom-specific decor. anyone whose been there in summer knows what I'm talking about. i also have to get something for m3. my mother doesn't have a livejournal account, or reads it. the person who m3 is for does indeed have a livejournal, so no more details about that gift will be disclosed ;-) i've got two things going out on craigslist today. I'm offing my wireless router, and my keyboard that never really ever helped at all for teaching me how to play piano. that is something that lessons are required. i tried so fucking hard to learn the piano on my own, but fucking a, that's shits hard. actually its quarter after three, i could go get m3 and mothers day done now, there are 24-hr stores who hold elements of those two gifts right now but i guess i should wait because i might have to roll down to the north-side to off the keyboard. i'll just stay home. I'm not spending any money on anything this week. not even buy gas if i can avoid it. while the gifts will cost money I'm not spending money on anything for my own person. no Yu-Gi-Oh! cards (i have several packs unopened upstairs), no pot (i have too much already), no cigarettes (w00t!), and I'm not going to buy anything from craigslist this week either. well that's not for sure, i've negotiated the shit out of this guy in waukesha for a nintendo game cube with four controllers, two games, and two games. i got him down to 85. fucking shit the four controllers would be almost a hundred alone. we'll see. i just wanted to post.