i spent the day with martini. fucked around with my cards mostly while watching over her. i set her up in Machiattos blanket and basket even for a little while until martini seemed to why and roll off of it. i have never seen such a wonderful animal in such dire straights. i feel horrible for her, but kry stays that she is probalby not in pain. if that be the case i'm bewildered as to why she is fighting so hard. does she think she has to wait till one of us are not there (krys or i) or does she think she has to wait for arsenic? it confuses me and makes me feel that much more close to everything around me.