i'm still being a complete asshole to krystal. i tryed so hard to make her happy this weekend but i fall short on nearly all attempts. game of life is incomplete. i do love her so much. i feel horrible for everything that i've done to her badly i think of how much she much feel for me and how i do not return the favour. but still there is so much that keeps us apart. deep shit that we need to either agree on never bringing up or something i do not want to think about.