ok well i've decided upon something. instead of hearing the queen bitch about everything about being here at my house on our day together during the week i'm just going to start going there. we'll have to get used to a new schedule. instead of trying to suck up any free minute doing mesh related things on the mornings before our day together i'll just be getting ready for my day to step away from it all instead. i'm considering not even taking my phone. i can literally fall off the face of the earth for an entire day. she is so sharp with me its unbelievable. she is so concise and specific it really bothers me beyond words. marriage has taken on a whole new meaning since i've gotten to know her. harlan might be right about everything he has been saying for all these years. all men like harlan might be right. maybe.. she wants to bitch about how life out in the suburbs ain't all its cracked up to be, then we'll spend every fucking weekend in the city then. fine with me. just so long as i dont have to spend any money. harlan is such a great man. but i still seem to find the ability to get pot when i need to. that might change with the legal 2006 issue however. well there isn't much else to say. i'm kind of already set into this method of thinking. i'll need that fucking memo pad now. i'm not taking my phone. /w