my father got all serious this morning. said "we need to talk" i asked him about what. he said money. led to the posed question of "would you have somewhere to go if i was forced to sell the house?" apparently he would live out his life with ami i assume. i'd go live with my grandma, but the constant realisation of living with my step-grandfather somewhat scares the living shit out of me. he treats my grandmother like shit, i'd end up killing him. that's even more scary cos in november were all voting (us wisconsinites) on reinstating the death penalty. i would be lethally injected. doesn't look so bad, but if you didn't' get those drugs first that numbed your body i heard the pain is so bad that you'd literally rip apart from your limbs from the reaction. not my ideal way of going out.