not sure how it got brought up, but we were talking about 'fear' last night at work. talking about the things that we are in fear of. to be honest i don't have a whole hell of a lot i'm afraid of. sure i'm afraid of the ocean, being in water, or hell even on an island, where nothing but water can be seen where the sky meets the earth on its horizon. that is scary shit! but i will never find myself in that situation, so though i'm afraid of it, i'm not "afraid" of it happening, because it would have to be something i walked right into. **knowing** that it might happen. so time falls off the clock, back of my head pinging the question back and fourth about _what i'm afraid of_... krystal. one of the only things that i'm afraid of is loosing krystal. i know i would never be guilty of doing anything that would make her instantly break up with me, so if she did leave me it would be because of something that is obscure, out of space, out of this world. these are all elements neither of us can control, so to be honest that has got to be the only thing i fear.