should be sleeping. lenin woke up late, so late delayed things. he should be ok, maybe just a lazy day. once in a while we have a lazy day. or a day were just not feeling it. i want to be sleeping right now, and shortly i will be. i just hope i wake up in time to have a short but meaninful conversation with my person before i go. all this fucking bullshit man i am serious. its one thing after another with me. i'm not mad, i'm not happy, but like i said sometimes we just aren't feeling it. brian wasn't feeling it at work last night. on that super fuck performance. he left about three o'clock. pert-near i hope he doesn't think i was mad at him when he left. i was just supercharged off a gram and i wasn't feeling anything but work. busy little bee i was last night but it still won't be enough. nothing ever fucking is. whatever the case, i hope i wake before 21.