[](http://www.flickr.com/photos/mesh/434338892/ "Photo Sharing") when i wake up i need to go to [the falls](http://www.google.com/maps?q=Menomonee+Falls,+WI+53051,+USA&sa=X&oi=map&ct=title) and get a tin of tobacco and some tubes. ideally there will one day be a setup of tobacco and tubes at [absolved](http://absolved.livejournal.com/)'s house so i didn't have to lug that shit over there with me each weekend. i like to pretend that we'll be married before it _really starts_ to bother me. but i'd really like to not have to take that shit over there each weekend. be nice if i got that elite roller, then i could bring my current system over to her place. cos she's got all the room in the world to store mesh-related items. \*ducks to miss flying objects\* i switched [my theme](http://eshm.livejournal.com/) once again. i've come to terms with two things. - i'll **never learn** how to customise [S2](http://www.livejournal.com/support/faqbrowse.bml?faqid=170&view=full). - i'll **never make** a remarkable theme on [S1](http://www.livejournal.com/support/faqbrowse.bml?faqid=250&view=full). i suppose what's different now, is that i'm _ok_ with that. [![[WITH_TEETH] Inside](images/12687403_daf2f47f69_m.jpg)](http://www.flickr.com/photos/mesh/12687403/ "Photo Sharing") i kind of want to go **buy** [the NIN album](http://yearzero.nin.com/). i had it preordered on [itunes](http://www.apple.com/itunes/), and got it the day it was released, but i spent a majority of my college life hunting down all the halos from sir trent and now this last one is the only one i truly don't **own a compact disc copy of**. i suppose the single either. i have to check itunes too, i swear to god the single is not on the album. i have a remix that is, but i don't know its weird. also on itunes the tracks say _x of 15_ but there are 17 tracks that i downloaded. plus the two digital booklets (which after looking at make me wanna own the album too) ones a remix, forget what the other thing is. point is it will get filed on **someday/maybe** and may or may not get done before i pass away. [](http://www.flickr.com/photos/mesh/5525079/ "Photo Sharing") a true friend and loyal citizen of this fine world, Brian Smyth will end his tenure at my work this thursday. it will be a sad that. i might even want to cry a little. i'll want to, i know that. [](http://www.flickr.com/photos/mesh/463028449/ "Photo Sharing") in the world of [XII](http://wiki.vanillatree.org/index.php?title=Final_Fantasy_XII:William's_Notes), i went back to salikawood and traveled north to the ???'s on the northernmost end. **Deadlands!** i want to be at least level 60 before reddas joins my party (as their initial levels as guest party members are in relation to vaan's level) having a great time that's for sure. finally some places with some EXP worth my time. everything else is pretty much a waste for how much i want to get done in a short time. god only knows what level i'd be at had i not stolen **embroidered tippets** so early on. [](http://www.flickr.com/photos/mesh/463027014/ "Photo Sharing") how's lenin? lenin's great! i feel so alienated from the rest of the russian tortoise community now that i've fled the forums from RussianTortoise\[dot\]org. now a member of 'shelled warriors', i am somewhat discouraged, due to the fact that i've spent most of my online life checking and posting and typing and responding and asking stuff on those forums and overnight how i just stop. i don't know what it is, i must intimidate the shit out of people or something, because no matter what i do i always end up clashing heads with the administration of no matter where i seem to be. my grandmother told me once that's what makes a leader. i could only think to myself, **not in this world.** i just am hesitant of posting i guess. it will seem like steps already taken before, but moreso they are much more organised over there on SW and don't really fuck off too much. the RT forums were a wild west of tangent posts and off-topic discussion. at times it was almost trivial to have categories with what was all discussed, and where. i need to be sleeping within the next few minutes, so i'm gone...