i got this strange thing about me... once in a great while (this doesn't happen everyday) i get this overwhelming power that washes over me. usually its a person that radiates this power that in turn makes me sense them out. i call it my "nice guy radar", and every once in a while it starts dinging. usually its in the presence of someone i do not know, but have a feeling of them being "nice". every once in a while tho, i really can't deny the feeling. its almost like i feel connected to a person without even knowing them. for example, at about 4:35 this morning there was this guy sitting in booth three. your common guy, probably a truck driver, sitting there eating his breakfast (that i cooked for him) just minding his business. soon as i saw the guy i just had the overwhelming "nice guy radar" going off on all sorts of levels. > "jill, you waiting on that guy in booth three?" > > "yeah" > > "is he nice?" > > "yeah, why?" > > "my nice guy radar was going off" not much else to really explain about it. when i see these people i just have the overwhelming desire to be nice to them, or to talk with them to find out why i have such a strong attraction to their aura. i never did talk to the guy, but he sure did look like a nice guy to know, have as a friend, or someone who might be related to you. its almost like i feel apathetic towards them, but its not a bad feeling, i don't feel bad for them, but i do feel like i'm connected to them and i don't know how or why. i just had to type that out, so i can stop thinking about it and focus my creative energy on something... else. working alone is great, especially when its the origial crew of our shift. jill, harlan and myself. nothing else is needed. we got each others' backs. i help harlan, harlan helps me, i help jill and so does harlan. we all just kind of know what each other is about and how to go about helping one another. if people worked as well as we did together, overhead would never be an issue. harlan said if i've been considering looking into **waste management**, to go ahead with that sort of idea before i got serious about **heating and air conditioning**. i never really considered being a _garbage man_ in my entire life, but when it comes down to the nitty-gritty i suppose i'll do anything that pays well and is not cooking. garbage, or no garbage, i need to **increase my rate per hour**. 'nuff said on that. waste managment would start around 15-20 an hour and that would really help me in my journey of marriage and financial responsibility with krysytal, my **soon-to-be-wife**. i bring home almost exactly half of what i did when i was working at pick n' save, and while that not happening anymore is entirely my fault, getting to, or surpassing that pay is the goal for me, personally. anything beyond that is money markets or diamond studded awnings. **fraud =** working while your on maternity leave.