i like using the QUEEN/MESH title heading on here when i post for YOU/ME. its nice. sticks out. lenin never seizes to amaze me. you have no idea what i go through before coming to your house. like how parents (good ones) must feel when they have to leave their kids. i so (and so does he) look forward to NOT having to do this anymore. but seriously i think he really did understand me when i said _lenin i am going to leave soon if your not going to get up and you wont eat till tomorrow_ he literally unburrowed in a few minutes. i bought pot or at least put in the order. i know i shouldn't get a tin of tobacco either, but i'm going to stop in the falls on the way there and get one because i know if i run out i'll end up buying a commercial pack. don't get mad at me when i smoke, i'm starting to have ideas on how to cut back slowly and then evenutlaly maybe open that smoking gum my gma gave me a while back that she got for dad and nicole when they went to that crap and failed. i know smoking is bad and i want to quit too, but like smoking pot i will have to cut back gradutally before i get anywhere worth writing home about. i'll get into bitch-mode quickly if i'm taken anything away suddenly. coffee (maybe its caffeine), cigarettes, my pot, you, lenin --- anything. so i'm going to smoke with nicole and feed lenin (last feeding off this batch of food --- new food monday) then i'll be heading out. i wanted to let you know what's up tho because i WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE NOW. i do hope you'd stay for smudge if you felt it was important. ultima too. so i'll be out there soon my beautiful fiance! (=