hard to letterbox in the rain. tomorrow is supposed to be **beautiful.** a good day to letterbox i work tomorrow (of course) i'll still letterbox until i'm blue in the face, regardless. rich lost his invites to my wedding and my house indefinitely all his ass-kissing has paid off. he is no longer a human, or somone sociable to me. why? he got crowned. he's a boss at work. has the power to fire me on the spot. he's a little emo bitch once in a while too. i'm not loosing my job over some stupid, emotional dragon-ball-z rage that only rich can get affected with. i have to severe all ties. he cannot and will not be allowed to collect dirt on me. but aside from that nothing can really change. i'll still hide pennies in spots that are supposed to be cleaned everyday (and still collect them from the **same spot** when i get back the following day) i'm going to refer to rich as "boss", mostly to piss him off and a dash of respect. but the line has to be drawn. i learned two things during my employement at pick n save 1) \_\_ \_\_\_ \_\_\_\_ \_\_\_\_ \_\_\_\_ \_\_\_\_\_\_\_\_ and 2) do not mesh worlds that do not belong together. do not mix social interactions with hourly employees and management. only one person remains standing after a confrontation like that, and i'm not going to let some little whiny ass kissing cock sucker, the man who talks all good about you to your face, and talks the big shit when you walk away. wow i'm mad. i still love brian. graybar? i emailed them friday morning. and like my resume email i requested a return receipt; both read, nothing happened. i'm so down on myself for all the right reasons. my project for work is no longer "leave TNT" because that's not an outcome. when you plan out things for the future, its best to do so in terms of "outcome thinking". meaning don't just claim to want to "get a new job", sit back and visualise what having a new job will bring you, and what changes you want to be in place with the change of employers, and let that be your project. its easy to say "i want to get a new job", but so does the rest of the country. maybe not "new" but "better". EVERYONE WANTS A BETTER JOB. but that's boring, you need to say something like "sitting on the couch with your feet up on a saturday evening, assured you not going to work tomorrow and under no circumstance will you have to because your employer is close to home, something you fear more than life itself; and is never opened on any weekend or holiday, except Columbus day. ;-) so keep that in mind because "get a new job" is boring and sounds like too much work to even want to try and take a whack at. nobody likes doing boring stuff. so keep your mind fresh and your words creative. to be honest, my project list related to where my money comes from is just that: close to home, closed on holidays and weekends and on xtreme first shift. what the fuck is extreme first shift? well to be frank, it breaks down like this: it would be really really really nice to be leaving the house at the same time krystal will be in the morning. but... the **only plus side of me working third shift** is that there will ALWAYS be someone at our place. our animals can only keep an eye on so much, and we don't want to work them too hard. i would like to ideally be leaving for work before krystal and arriving home a few hours before her. this would allow me to GTD on the kitchen mode so i could have like _hot food waiting at the table_ pertnear when krystal gets home; just like my mom used to have ready for my dad back in the day. cos seriously when i get all goofy and cook i can be fucking around for well over an hour and somtimes close to too if it involves FROZEN stuff. **i'd hate for a starving wife come home to some frozen turkey.** there is so much more but its saturday i got to get a move on it.