for the past four+ years i've been known as mESH to many of you. i guess that has become my 'nickname' on the surface, but on a more serious level, its more than that. Krystal [absolved](http://absolved.livejournal.com/) calls me mESH in real life and has never called me anything else... ever. so on that level its more than a nickname. its on my our wedding invitations, and more than likely will be in my our vows. and i've allllllways pushed very, _very_ hard to get people to recognize it as mESH with its obscure capitalisation scheme. today to my dearest livejournal friends, i ask for that to be pardoned. not that any of you followed it anyway. ;-) i mean that in a humorous tone too, i've come to learn my text can be razor sharp. i suppose if i was a huge corporation this would be more of press release, or if these were wrestling this would be a new gimick. from now i'm on that proper: Mesh it looks weird to me but all these years i've found it pertnear impossible to sign mESH, while Mesh on the other hand is easy as anything else. so yeah... big deal i know... whatever --- but there is reason behind it all. you see my old name back in the day was mesh\_precedence. you know a handle like anyone else has. it almost seems like a time when having a handle was important. i could fucking care less nowadays, but back then oh boy the hours i spent thinking up something new. anyways after meeting krystal i started spelling it mESH around the time i felt that krystal "was the one". but instead of boasting to everyone like a prom queen about how i think i found the woman of my dreams and all that blah blah blah i just thought i would do it in my name. the three capitalised letters rearranged spell out SHE. get it? i'm getting married to SHE. one finds letting that gimmick out of the bag to its freedom done with ease. no?