when i go to work **fridays** the only thing that keeps me sane is knowing that we'll be **busy as all hell** so the night will go fast and in turn i'll be home _"quicker"_ than i would _"normally"_. well last night was **slow** compared to what i'm used to. we ended up with a **decent total** (just under 1,200) but nevertheless barush was b, the beginning was **steady** and the in between was **grim** at best. i was not feeling it at all. **i came to cook**, i don't come to watch an old guy drink coffee and stare back. 04:45 or so rich was on that _"you can be on that bounce if you want"_ tempting but no. **leaving work early doesn't pay the bills. leaving makes the bills harder to deal with.** plus **not working eight hours** sends me home with stored energy i don't need when i get there. i can't make noise when i get home. so i stood there and make my **small change**, but thanks for the offer. **rich and sally alike complimented the invites.** sally says _"you can tell time and effort was put into those"_. rich was amused that such a thing as **"halloween brads" existed** (the things that bind the paper together and disguise the hole punch) so now i'm here at home, glad i didn't leave early. nothing going on here either. my **life is getting really dull** but its all good and for the better i'm just on that focused on the 21st. **monday i'm packing up the computers, the playstations and my stereos.** i'll **still run around with my ibook cos i can't get offline completely** but i don't wanna be caught up the last day or so with stuff still to pack and a playstation being the reason why. **i got no money at all.** no money for absolutely nothing this weekend. not even sure i'll have the petrol to fuel the week but i'm going to have to make due somehow. it was on of my three things i wanted to work on this year. on my birthday each year i really sit down and think about three things that i wanna get real about and i spend the year working on those things. one of my things this year was **"deal"**. meaning **deal with it**. and i've improved so much, but i'm nowhere i want to stay. i still need improvement. the **buffet-style-wedding-food** planning is getting real come monday. i still have **nothing to wear** and **nowhere for ppl to sit yet**. i'm **worried people will skip the ceremony too**. rich even said he wasn't even planning on coming to it, but that changed when i told him it was **going to be less than twenty-minutes long.** time to shower soon. **i'm really getting used to the navy shower idea.**