I haven't posted anything this year, and I have large piles of shit that I need to work thru at home before I can consider my work to be done, however I might need to loosen the grip I try and have on things. Last night I'm getting out of the shower when I get a song from the new songs of anarchy album and I can't stop thinking about my father and how bad things are between us. I pushed it down thinking maybe it's just me being ultra sensitive again but then this morning I feel off yet still and I don't know what to do about it. I get to work and see the guy sitting at booth nine that looks just like my father from afar and I find myself back to where I was at when I got out of the shower last night. I want to reach out to him but I don't know how.