Spent my whole childhood hoping to one day be able to shave and go to work because I hated school. I was long into adulthood before I learned how to listen to the questions I had asked of people. Now I am an established adult, and I wish I could give my childhood particularly my adolescence a second go. It's not as if I had wished different end results for my life I just wish I would have paid more attention growing up. I acknowledge and recognize that the things that I experienced in my life have made me who I am and who I am not. I just sometimes feel like I not a providing husband to my dearest wife. I seem to always feel this way around her birthday.