> To some this will come as a surprise others will have been waiting to hear this for quite some time. I've got a problem that I've been dealing with for over 2 years. I'm balling my eyes out walking having just been released from jail and I don't know what else to do other than tell everyone else I take care about. It's so fucking difficult to stay but I am a full fledged raging alcoholic and I don't know what the fuck to do about it. I appreciate the people that have tried to reach out to me in the last 2 years. I'm sorry for blowing you off. Suffice it to say I was probably drunk and didn't know what the fuck I was doing. It is consumed my every moment of waking time, shaking sweating, throwing up half a dozen times a day half of that being blood. Definitely sure that's what ended my marriage. I don't have words to describe to you guys about how much of a fucking piece of shit I am. I wake up everyday disappointed that I did. I don't remember going to sleep ever i black out every night. I don't even know who the fuck I am anymore.