Cara was in Rhinlander last night.  Her Grandmother's funeral was at eleven o'clock this morning.  The wake was at 16:00 last night.  I felt terrible that I wasn't able to be there for her during that time up there, but it did give me an evening to reflect upon myself all the things that I can change in order to make things better in the future.  It's funny that I often think it's the 24x7 exposure to one another that sometimes gets each other under our skins but at the same time, maybe that is just a cop-out because I really do fucking miss the shit out of her she's gone.