```yaml title: fuck fuck fuck published_date: 2016-02-23 00:00 tags: relationships, recovery ``` 🐈‍⬛🐈‍⬛ --- Now. Do absolutely anything to be standing in front of her to make a fool in front of myself and her to tell her what she really meant to me.  In two hours I'll be head-down at at my working interview thinking about you constantly, thinking about what it would be like to be here and what it would be like to be loved undesirably by me.  I just wish everything in the world was different. Need to swoop a Digital Camcorder to help aide the transisition.  Log the progress of post-Cara to post-Cara you know what the fuck I mean...