I'm not bashing Nicole, not even in the slightest.  But if her genetic makeup is anything like my own, and perhaps she simply does not understand how much Social Media plays a part of modern day society, but the reality is it fucking pains me to see Nicole liking shit Cara puts up.  It just does.  Why?  Because she (Cara) has gone out of her way to pretty much make me invisible to her online and yet she interacts with Nicole and whatnot on there.  Fucking irritates the fuck out of me. Here we are, I DO NOT KNOW if I'm actually going to be able to get over this one.  Started a dialogue with two ladies online, who are going thru the female-mirror-equivalent of my situation right at this exact moment.  One is also recovering from the bottle.  Believe you me, I'm not trying to smash anyone, I think I am going to try and approach the whole game of ladies differently.  I never let someone as far into me as I did Cara.  That shit is will simply NEVER happen again.  I let too much of my walls get put down.  FUCK ALL THAT. Fuck me.  It's Friday. There is fish thawing downstairs.  I would honestly just step in and make them something fantastic, but the reality is I'm not going to intrude on their turf like that.  I'm focusing on tomorrow.