Well our first snowflakes that hold their ground are falling as I type.  Suddenly that confidence I had walking around outside even sometimes holding my cane as if it's just a luxury prop for a movie seems to be kicked back down to zero. I'm officially certified now so that means I can "hold the fort" down alone.  The idea still freaks me out a little bit but that is the reality of however I've been at any job in the past. Nicole Behling came into the store last night.  We talked a little bit.  Her younger sister was with her.  She's had more life experiences than I'll ever have and it was an honor to see her so appropriately.  Amanda said "I can't believe someone that pretty was with you."  I just laughed it off, but that shit really did hurt. Don't think I have a candidate for watching Midnight Clear with this year so I might be doing that shit solo.  I would really like to share that experience with someone else, but I just simply do not have anybody to share it with at this time in my life. I need to reach out to Jennifer about rides to work this week.  Closing with Frank tonight.