Really starting to get lonely here in Appleton I was delighted to see Amy Elmore when I came into work today. Each passing moment it's becoming more and more clear to me how much I will not be involved with Kendra's life this is something I guess I shouldn't be too shocked about it all, what the fuck did I expect to happen? There's so much to see in this town but I haven't gone around at all because it's all very sort of difficult to gets you without a vehicle. Signed up for this signed up for this goofy program called _high there_ trying to find people to hang out with. I mean honestly I could really just go for going out to dinner with somebody at this point and just have an honest conversation about things I don't even know what. I'm on my first break of my second day and Appleton I should go head back in now. All very self-conscious otherwise I probably would have swam at the hotel by now.