- Jill is struggling to find herself a Judge or Court Commissioner to do the dirty deed for her and my Father. - This prompted a conversation about the name of the person who married Krystal & I.  So I came upstairs and watched the video of us walking down the aisle. - New Ubuntu installation and so there were not the proper codecs installed so the video was very choppy even in VLC.  So symbolic, but also so was the song that we walked down the aisle to. - We should have both seen it coming, but looking back now there is no possible way Krystal couldn't have seen the signs of failure as well.  Maybe that just goes to show you how strong peoples faith in the possibility in change can be.  And in that regard I failed her - But back to the music 🎶 the songs that I meshed together almost created something symbolic in and of itself as well.  _Let's not even talk about your **purple** "crystal" (amethyst) you have inked on your neck._   - The way the Undertaker's walk out music is basically a funeral, for he is the Undertaker after all.  The tone of his song could be used to represent was literally about to happen to our relationship (it dying) only mere moments after the Honeymoon ended. - But then also how the song then ends and one of the most beautiful songs in the entire world (still to this day) starts to take over.  And while she did walk out to the song and while I used to append every shitty little situation about the downfalls of <insert ANYTHING here> on either our failed marriage or her as a person, hindsight is always 20/20 and now looking back I realize that almost all of that was entirely in reverse.  Almost all those things were products of my creation.  And I did have a fairy tale idea of what a marriage was supposed to be.  I literally followed the same social path and took the same social queues that I saw my Father use over and over and over again and watching it fail just as much as it started.  Still, you don't learn until you burn yourself by the error of your own ways. - But to further that notion and how clearly it seems now.  Women are of course one of the most beautiful things in the entire world.  To find someone to disagree is to find someone who got _really screwed over_ by some women they really truly loved very deeply at a time in their lives when they were most vulnerable and therefore they cannot go back to how things used to be. - So the latter part of the music, beautiful as the women of the world are indicates the future of both of our lives, after the ill-fated marriage.  Krystal, the beautiful women she is goes off and finds what truly makes her happy and honestly after the things that I put her through, I'm not sure what I left her with that is not permanently damaged.  But regardless we both make it through the depths of hell (even if that's all we did together) in order to make it through to the **beautiful** otherside. - This all seemed a lot more expansive and better articulated in my head and for that I'm a little meh but I'm all over the place trying to get messages back from Jessica because I would _really_ like to see my Daughter today before hooking up with the Family for Mom's Birthday. 👶🎂 - We got someone new wanting in on FamilyCraft.  He seems legit.  We shall see.