After searching out Danielle's name on this very website I'm faced with search results upon search results of numerous times I've brought her up in what comes off as frustration and confusion when it comes to processing how I feel about her. But that's not, this goes back into my karma argument. She is acting outwardly the exact same way I have behaved with people I cared about in the past. When will the life lessons stop being a reoccurrence? I'm not sure I read the book the right way!? I know changes take time, so perhaps this the universe telling me that Danielle is one of the toxic people that need to go? What do I do now? I've given her her ring, so do I just hand her Book Two and send her on her way? I'm angry and confused with mostly myself about how things have turned out. When I think about the things we've talked about anything super serious in depth are things that I brought up on my own accord, and anything in depth from her was in response to something deep I said. I cannot find examples of when she threw a line into the water that was of any depth. Shawn is right, I need someone intelligent enough - but how has this been so far off this long, am I unwilling to admit that I have knowledge about things and if I can't accept that does it just turn into something else because I brush it off to the side and it's got enough meritable energy on its own so it just takes on a life of its own!? Is this the massive fucking result of overthinking!? Notes to myself, Chapter 3 coming soon. Stacie saved my ass big time last night, saying all the right things at absolutely all the right times. The way this lovely woman graces the earth is beyond the comprehension of my simple mind. All the benevolent powers of this earth were truly in harmonious alignment the day our realities were blessed with her presence. I've found it literally effortless to do things prior to knowing her that were deemed impossible or completely ignored altogether. Can't be letting this control my conclusions about people anymore. It makes me think maybe I'm unwilling, to be honest about my conclusions either. Perhaps I am unwilling to admit that my true conclusion about people is that they are all out to take advantage of me just like my wretched cunt babysitter did. Danielle's "warm words" about my undivided attention and lack of phone plan will be only memories of things she remembers sharing with me, and maybe when she has finally unfucked herself she will know why I thought it was best that we might share these moments we have been any longer. Outside of that, it's all onto other things. This is having such a major impact on me compared to any other time because I've truly limited my distractions in life all super infatuating side hobbies and whatnots have been pushed along the way. I'm entirely focused on what is right in front of me at any given time. I've got my phone in a goddamn Crown Royal bag for fucks sake. **I'm here!** Alright that's it, it's off to work then in about an hour. FTW never meant Fuck the World it means **_Forever Together Wherever_**. You need to stop walking around assuming the people you want knowing your secrets, do.