Consumed psilocybin last night and meditated on my Rider deck. This seemed to have caused massive social disturbance for Stacie, whom had plans to come over for the _"better part of the night"_ but she failed to let me know that was the case and I was too focused on myself to think about how much she may have needed me during her time of need. She kept telling me today how much she has been going through and how hard things are for her. I'm just focused on me and that is all she seems to be able to be focused on. She is heading to Dallas tomorrow with her family and I think it will be a good time for her to be apart from me for that long. I'm not sure if I'm going to be socially available to her or not doing that time, but she seemed to have indicated earlier that wouldn't be the case. Going through the motions once again.