> Just been working. I don't come on here, I don't have it on my phone and I don't really do on here on my computer much. That day you reminded me about how retarded it was to be fucking around with someone who was married is something I think about quite often. I pledge to never share my heart with another soul so long as there is blood in my veins and my heart is beating. It's just not worth it. I'm full of resentment and closet misdirected-hatred to a lot of things I held near and dear even just one year ago. I get so caught up when some fucking random person gives me attention and make this big fucking world of something that is truly nothing. Fuck making a mountain out of a molehill I've been spending too much time creating entire universes build around women who never thought I was worth much of a fuck in the first place! Head down and bury myself in cold, lifeless meat and covered in blood soaked through to my skin. I always used to repeat the lines over and over in my head IDK if you're wearing me out or wearing me well and I can say with absolute certainty now that every fucking women I've ever known in my entire life did BOTH. First they wore me well and then when they found out what kind of a person I really am, they wore me the fuck out until there was nothing left, either friendzoned me or divorced me and then RAN THE FUCK AWAY. Franks best friend Randy just died of a heart attack. Not too much older than me. We had a lot in common I shared many dark stories with him about drinking and we had a lot of the same reservations about the world. I can't fucking believe that I let someone else get to me like this. I mean it's whatever now I'm pretty much numb to everything. She has come to the realization of what we were and why it was best she spent her days now figuring out the ways to love her husband again like a good wife should. She can't look into her daughters eyes and live that lie anymore. Yadda yadda yadda, save the fucking poetic nonsense and just sense me a middle finger emoji and get the fuck back on your phone and keep searching for happiness! Woke culture can suck my fucking dick.