```yaml title: Forty-Three link: forty-three published_date: 2024-10-24 04:27 tags: restored make_discoverable: true ``` --- A couple weeks ago, I crossed over the official time of my birth across another calendar year. It is now more than safe to say that I am well past the 50% marker of my overall lifespan. Coming to grips with how finite life really is not a lesson that comes lightly. This realization that we are truly past the halfway point makes me realize how long I have been putting "this" off. That is to say, life itself. While I understand the concept the of *"going with the flow"* and *"being like water"*, the reality is sometimes you find yourself, for incredible periods of time where the water is stagnant. Sitting there with no motion whatsoever. Over time you start to *evaporate* and the very idea of your true character becomes diluted and morphs into some conjured up mess — created by those around you, whom you let take advantage of your insecurities. Ⅲ --- <div class="afterword"> <p>✉️ <em><a href="mailto:[email protected]?subject={{ post_title }}">Reply by Email</a></em></p> </div>